what am i doing
June 2012
41 posts
i put together some screenshots i had saved from the past probably 6 months, was going to say a year, but idk. i put them here in an ebook, is this allowed to be called an ebook, w/e idk, thx
i have promised myself that i will change my life.
love is different to how i’ve been seeing it.
i get a cursory “i love you” most days but it
doesn’t mean much. i am loved as a constant
as someone who is always there.
but not like how he loves me. not with all
the carnivals and fireworks and human
cannonballs. he loves me like a holiday.
it’s like an unfamiliar heat and with colours
i don’t even know the names of.
— from “Untitled” by Sian Rathore in Illuminati Girl Gang Vol. 1
Once on a mildly depressing Wednesday night Baby Jong-il’s mommy, after feeding him raw cookie dough, read him no, i can’t drive and i won’t learn by Sian S. Rathore.
link to .pdf
Complete booklet includes “Downtime,” “PC,” “2004. Buenos Aires,” “DJ,” “Dear friend,” “John Doe,” “A haiku,” “Je t’aime,” “They told me something sad,” and “Too Much”
2004: Buenos Aires
and this was the city
that i
missed so much?
You have to dance, they tell me
You have to be there dancing, always
Sometimes in life
you have to assume roles
But I can’t get up
from the floor
i get bored
i smoke a joint
i sit in a chair
i think: i’m snub
my photos have no poetic flight
my poems have no poetic flight
and aside from that, i don’t have tits
Small black room with tightly pressed bodies
The DJ announces what’s hot:
cuban hip hop
I spend the night waiting for him
to play something
from the nineties
Date: Tue, 22 Mar 2005
From: “marina Alessio”
Subj.: dear friend
To: “Germán Garrido”
Dear friend
time’s flying by
and i’m stuck here shut indoors
counting corpses
in ashtrays
i’d like to have two boyfriends
equally gorgeous
and live with both in a house
with separated bedrooms
i’m a bitch and i’m suburban
i had an ulcer when i was 17
my bathroom doesn’t have heated water
and i don’t live with the man i love any more
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Marina Alessio was born Buenos Aires in 1980. She studied photography and film. She is a writer, photographer and art curator. She has published the books of poetryAmigos, se sacarían la ropa para mí? (Plush, 2003), Contigo Punk y Cebolla (Abunda Ediciones, 2005) and Pecés (Triana, 2010). She has an unedited novella: No tengo ganas de bailar.
She currently owns the art gallery Mite, and a bookstore dedicated to contemporary art and poetry, Purr.
her blog:
http://pulpopolar.blogspot.com/
The poems in this collection were first published in Pecés by Marina Alessio, Triana, 2010.
Trans: Jacob Steinberg, 2010
Cover art: Nicolás Barraza, rostbif

