on nights when i’m alone i regress
and imagine all sorts of things that i promised myself i would never wish for again
i’m afraid of the heater in my room
the noises it makes sometimes seem highly abnormal
once for a period of 2 weeks i thought it was broken
then it turned on by itself for about 4 seconds and turned back off
someone from facilities unplugged it and plugged it back in and it started working again
it seems fine now
but the noises it makes sometimes
for a minute tonight i felt terrified of going insane because someone called me about sleeping alone and i had wanted to sleep alone anyway but then i felt like something had been taken away from me
i laughed with tears in my eyes
if you’re not forgetting me then what are you doing
it hasn’t become easy for me yet
