on nights when i’m alone i regress

and imagine all sorts of things that i promised myself i would never wish for again

i’m afraid of the heater in my room

the noises it makes sometimes seem highly abnormal

once for a period of 2 weeks i thought it was broken

then it turned on by itself for about 4 seconds and turned back off

someone from facilities unplugged it and plugged it back in and it started working again

it seems fine now

but the noises it makes sometimes

for a minute tonight i felt terrified of going insane because someone called me about sleeping alone and i had wanted to sleep alone anyway but then i felt like something had been taken away from me

i laughed with tears in my eyes

if you’re not forgetting me then what are you doing

it hasn’t become easy for me yet

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