The drugs I took that night made me bite down on nothing for hours
except when I opened wide to kiss and take in
the mouths of my friends and people I wanted to love
I screamed and jumped on a rooftop and waited for it to break through
I walked around in circles and ended up in a corner by myself multiple times
I just wanted to see some goddamn fireworks, and when I did, I watched them alone
You asked me if I believed in heaven
and I said sort of
That was probably the closest I’ll ever get to it
I am sure heaven has fireworks in every direction
I know you don’t think it exists
and that makes me feel okay
