staceyteague:

some people seem to give in to their sadness or let themselves be defined by destructive habits, but fuck that, i just want to be a better person

although, sadness is a thing that happens, and at least we can make it into something productive

sometimes i feel reckless, and indifferent, and that feels good

and then very bad

even though i appear meek, i am tough when it is important to be

i’ve realised that it is okay to be everything all at once

most nights i look at the moon/stars and it knocks me out

over breakfast this morning the boys were talking about how the universe was made and they all paused for a moment, thinking about the impossibility of it all

you never stop feeling like that

lately i’ve had trouble expressing what it is that i feel 

i get afraid that i actually don’t feel anything at all when this happens

but that’s never true

emotions & experiences mean nothing to me unless they can be written down or reflected upon

there are parts of myself that feel external to me