i’m sorry i wasn’t born a man.
i’m sorry i pay for services i don’t use.
i call visa and spend twenty minutes opting out of this thing called balance protector that at some point i said yes to.
they give me a confirmation code and that code is CL030613.
i’m sorry i use every part of my body during acts of love.
i’m sorry i get sad sometimes and smoke too many cigarettes.
pray for me i am not where i am meant to be.
i am not whole.
pray for me, i went the wrong direction.
pray for me, i want to abandon my body. i want wings.
i tell the girl on the other end of the line that ‘i don’t get money.’
there is no freedom for a woman.
i’m sorry i disconnected myself from you, mom.
i’m sorry i left the womb.
pray for me, i’m sorry i wasn’t born a bird.